Jan 29, 2015

Black on Black

Wearing: Heels - ZARA
Skirt - Gina Tricot
Shirt - ASOS
Necklace - H&M

It's been a couple of weeks again.. the passed days I've been struggling with my daily life. My finals are over, thank god. I wish I could skip my whole uni process. Well at least it's not that hard for me to handle both: work and uni. I kinda got used to it very well. 
Besides all of this I think I am getting more and more homophobic. I've met so many people in this city but I really don't get what it is that people can judge you that easily about your actions but not knowing who you are. Some of them think you're dumb but actually you are aware of everything. I don't have to be that person who everyone likes but I can see so many of my friends acting like that. Being fake just so people like you is hilarious for me but that's how they are and that's what I got used to again. I think I am just not that person who can change her personality for others. 

I wish people would raise their chldren how to happy instead of how to be rich in their future.

There are so many people around me who say they do not care about the money but deep inside of them I can see how they are controlled by it. They all have these money problems but that's again societie's fault. We should try to be happy about the little things, because that's what matters in the end.

Jan 2, 2015

Bambi is with me !

Tights - DISNEY
Tee - H&M
Cardigan - THRIFTED
Accessories - H&M

Me an Bambi wish you a happy new year 2015!


Dec 11, 2014

Use Somebody

So Mango is on sale and of course I had to check it out! I bought these lovely black pants and combined them with some strappy heels which are also from Mango. My big slouchy cardigan and white top are from H&M. 

May I also schare something with you guys.. since I moved to this huge city I never thought that I would experience so much stuff just in one year. It is such a difference to the cities (which were tiny compared to ─░stanbul) where I lived before. You meet so many new people but though none of them makes you feel appreciated. I think people are used to being alone all time even though we live in such a big metropole with too many people. What is even stranger, they make you accept this too. At first I felt lost but with time you get used to it and actually it is sad that we are all getting used to this lifestyle of being selfish. One good thing is at least you know how it is to stand on your own feet as myself: I go to uni but work besides it. It's an awesome feeling being independet partially, but then I realized I've grown to much and maybe a little too early? I wish I could turn 16 again :D.. naah just kidding.. it's weird having so many feelings and thoughts at the same time. I sometimes reconsider if this is really the city I wanna live? Because I feel not really accepted as a woman, as a student.. Sometimes even your very bests make you feel misunderstood. It is really hard to explain and express yourself without being misunderstood here. Because people here are like lost trying to be modern but still sticking to their traditions. People celebrate new year's eve like christmas but don't even realize that the christmas tree symbolizes christians but at the same time they also celebrate ramaddan? That is confusing to me.. but as I said it before you accept it how it is, because you can't change these people. Besides this you always get confronted with the ''very rich'' and he ''very poor''.. these people are not able to find the middle.. either you are rich or poor. That's how they categorize you. It's hilarious, but at least I know that the most important thing about this is to keep your self-confidence high and stay true to yourself, because people will always try to make feel bad. People can be very rude. There are so many times when I just wanna be far far away from here but then I might miss it too because as I told you before: They get you used to it.